(edited to add: for some strange reason, blogger would only "let" me upload this one photo----all the others took forever (or else didn't load) & then they were just a blank square! sorry, from here on out, no pretty pictures, just me talking.
and now that i think about it, that's exactly what this post is about!!!!!!
ha! how perfect!!! lesson learned!!!!)
my word for 2012 is "time."
time for friendships.
time for God.
i've noticed - & it bugs me - that i sometimes don't take enough time for people. i am sometimes so busy that i don't have conversations with people.
i just talk to them. quickly. and sometimes i leave them standing & i disappear, off to do something else. i did that to someone yesterday morning at church & i feel really bad about it.
then afterwards i think "what did i say to ____?" "i barely said anything at all to ____. " & i think of 100 things i could have said to them, things i wish i had said. & then i'll "play out" the conversation in my head & have a really good time with "them"! or i think "gosh, i only spent 14 seconds talking to ____ & then i moved on to something else. why didn't i spend more time with ___ before i left ____ to go talk to _____ for 10.3 seconds?" but more importantly -- what did the person i was "talking" to think when i just left ???
if you are one of the people that i have "talked" to for 17.8 seconds or less & then i've left you standing wondering where i flittered off to, i am sorry. i apologize. i WANT to talk to you. i WANT to have a real conversation with you. i WANT to spend TIME with you.
and then there's God.
i NEED more time with Him. i've really been convicted about the time i spend with Him. or rather the little time i spend. i NEED to make my TIME with Him a priority.
dr. shockley's sermon series the last 3 weeks has been on how to love God. one of the ways to love God is to spend time with Him. i need to love God more. i need to not worry about so many other things that i'm neglecting Him.
God needs my time, not my busyness.
- does God care that there are no dirty dishes in the sink before i go to bed, before i read His word, before i talk to Him or would He rather have 10 more minutes with me??
- is it more important for me to jump up out of bed & go about my day or should i spend time with God first, seeing what He has in store for me that day?
- instead of rushing to the computer when i get home to see what everyone has posted on facebook, shouldn't i be rushing to my chair to pick up my Bible to see what He has to say, or pray & pour out my heart to Him & talk to Him?? shouldn't i be spending TIME with Him???
so my word for 2012 is TIME.
i will devote more time to God, more time to relationships, friendships, & conversations. more time to you.
thanks for being a part of my life. thanks for blessing me!