Saturday, January 28, 2012

a strange sight for the end of january!!

but isn't it lovely?!

 the virgin islands in january!!!!!!

last night i watched "beauty & the beast", danced on the couch & snuggled & rocked in the chair with this little cutie!!!!  (actually SHE was the one who danced on the couch!!!!)

i should have washed the spaghetti off her face before taking her picture!!!!!! 
oh, well, keepin' it real!!!!

we had fun!!!

and since we're keepin' it real, today i slept in til 9, stayed in my pj's all day, burned a pot of noodles & the whole house still smells like SMOKE, even with all the windows open all day!!!!

i was going to bake something, but i have no eggs.

& i'm not getting dressed to go to the store.

& i feel like doing nothing.  

wish i had someone to do it with!!!!

have a blessed weekend!!!  tomorrow's sunday!!!!   and after that comes monday......

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

what happens when you go to bed at 8pm? wake up at 2 AM, WIDE AWAKE, & probably won't be able to go back to sleep until RIGHT BEFORE the alarm is supposed to go off!!!!!

i've gotten quite a bit accomplished in the last 2 hours though!!!!!  gonna go read & hope to fall asleep for at least a couple more hours.  sorry no pictures - i'm getting tired, too tired to upload a picture!!!!  maybe i'll get some more sleep yet!!!!!

"good night!!!"

p.s.  man is it WINDY out there!!!!  and a tornado warning just flashed on the computer screen!!  maybe i'll stay awake!!!!!!

have a blessed day!!!!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

a revelation

i was disappointed when church ended today.  more specifically when dr. parle (a guest speaker) stopped preaching.  he's preached a few other times in the past months that our church has been looking for a new pastor, but none of his sermons touched me the way this one did today.

he always begins his sermons with a prayer.  now while this is not unusual for most pastors, his prayer is different.  he leads the congregation in a soul & mind cleansing prayer to enable you to be open to the Word & what God has to say to you.  one of the things he tells us to do is to ask God to show us just one thing that will make our lives different today.

today i earnestly prayed that part.......God, please show me the one thing that i really need that will make my life different.  the one thing that i really need to learn today. 

and when he prayed that God would speak through him, i prayed, yes, God, speak TO ME through him.

the title of dr. parle's sermon was "what is love anyway?"  his text was 1 corinthians 13, verses 4 & 5 in particular. 

"love is patient"

as he went over each of the words describing what love is or isn't,  i came to the realization that patience isn't my problem. 

i've thought it was.  i've been praying for God to make me more patient.  after this morning i believe, truly believe, that God has accomplished this!   i've just been praying for the wrong kind of patience!!  

i didn't use to be patient.  i would explode at the slightest thing.  i'm ashamed that i behaved the way i did sometimes, but that's in the past. 

in his notes, dr. parle writes, "patience means 'slow to anger', patience becomes evident when there is pressure on a person & when that person does not react to the pressure in anger, either inwardly or outwardly.  when one is patient, he is forebearing, calm, composed, & of a meek & quiet spirit, even when wronged; he endures evils, whether real or imagined."

over the years of my life i've been wronged quite a lot of times.  i didn't handle a lot of those wrongs in the right way.  but as i look over some recent wrongs, i can honestly say that i have handled them with patience!  the "wronging" was not my doing, but how i handled it was!  and i handled it with love!  (now i need to be conscious of how i am towards people so i don't wrong them.)

so now, rather than praying for patience, i'm going to pray that God will help me WAIT.  because waiting & being patient are 2 different things!

"love is kind"

"a kind person, then, is one who is helpful, who is serving others, whose life is useful because he is seeking to promote the happiness of others.  he is friendly, affectionate, gentle, mild, & gracious in his manner.  while patience is love passive, not retaliating at the inconveniences put upon it, kindness is love active, reaching out to minister good, beneficial things to others, even when they don't deserve it."  (& i might add - even when they don't reciprocate.)

i don't have a problem in this area.  i love to serve others, i'm friendly & affectionate (the church hugger!!), etc.........i really try to promote fellowship & unity amongst others & i hope they see this in me.

it's THOSE OTHER  "virtues "  i struggle with!!!

the worst one is jealousy. 

this hit me like a load of bricks this morning!!!  this was the "one thing that i really need to learn today to make my life different."

i struggle with this sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.  i'm not going to go into all the things i'm jealous of here.  God & i have talked about them.  He knows.  i'm going to seriously begin to pray about this "problem" & hopefully one day i will be able to write on this blog that i have successfully mastered this problem too!

i corinthians 13:4,5
"love is patient, love is kind & is not jealous; loves does not brag & is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered"

and his sermon next week, 13:6,7
"does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."

pray with me & for me.

on another note,  here's what i've done the past couple nights!! ---

a little skin for ya!!!!

ha ha nancyb!!!!!

this makes the BEST bubbles!!!  and it smells wonderful!!!!!

well, the sun has come out, so i'm headed to the virgin islands!!!  see y'all later!!!!

what a BLESSED DAY!!!!!!

Saturday, January 21, 2012

contest winner

well, my sister maggie correctly guessed - in fact, she was the ONLY ONE who guessed - what my latest project was!!!!   she wins a trip to the virgin islands, airfare NOT included!!!!!!!!!   ha ha ha!!!!  actually, i should have disqualified her too since i told her my plans way before christmas & forgot i told her!!!   be watching your mail maggie!!!

so, my project was my pantry door!!!!

yup!!!  it's RED!!!! 

i love it!!!!

i've still gotta paint the walls & the woodwork.

i saw on someone's blog where they had painted their cabinets white, painted the walls apple green & painted their pantry door apple green.  i thought that it looked so cool & knew right then that i wanted to paint the pantry door RED!!!

i'm the only person i know who has a RED pantry door!!  i was the only person i knew who had a wall papered pantry door too!!!!  

what i'd REALLY like to find is an OLD chippy wooden screen door!!!! 

now to just get the walls & woodwork painted......................

so blessed!!!!!!

Friday, January 20, 2012


this was on another blog i read.......these are my answers to her questions.....

Currently loving... God, with all my heart, all my soul, all my strength.
Currently reading... October Song
Currently waiting for... God to do something really fantastic!
Currently excited about... can't tell ya!!
Currently dreaming about... warmer weather & floating in the pool & can't tell ya!!!
Currently missing... my daughter & my suntan
Currently trying... to get motivated
Currently working at... trusting God.  completely.
Currently enjoying... the silence except for the the wind & windchimes which sound beautiful!
Currently snacking on... a piece of cake my new neighbor brought over.  it's good, but i have officially decided i do not like cake. i will never eat another piece of cake.
Currently using... olive oil hand soap.  i love the smell!!
Currently wearing... a bathrobe
Currently planning...for a stamping workshop with church ladies tomorrow morning.
Currently singing... nothing
Currently needing... a hug.  but not a girlfriend hug & not an "old man hug" from the little old men at church!  a real, long, strong, romantic, "i'll make it ok" & hold you forever hug.
Currently learning... to be patient.  been learning this a long time & still haven't mastered it yet!
Currently listening to...the windchimes blowing in the wind.
Currently wishing... someone would get the message!
Currently doing... running water in the tub for a bubble bath
Currently praying for...can't tell ya!
Currently dreaming of... moving to the country
Okay it's your turn if you want... you can give me a run down of a few of your current statuses in comments just for fun. 
contest ends tonight.  get your vote in!!!!  winner announced tomorrow!!!!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

pretty pictures

after yesterday's ugly pictures, i thought you deserved some pretties!! 

these were all thank you cards i made for christmas gifts......

well, that's not too pretty!!!!!!

some i made for birthdays or as a gift to a special friend......

and this is the name frame i made my niece for her baby shower.......

i have nothing else to i'm going to bed! 

8:15pm......i need a life!!!!!!!!!!!!

or a project!!!!

or a   ....................!!!!

wait!!!  i DO have something else to say!!!!   i can't believe only ONE person has attempted to guess what my project was for the contest!!!!  come on people!!!  join in the fun!!!!!   -- contest ends friday night!!!

be blessed!!

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

embarrassing pictures

i'm embarrassed to show these pictures. 

this is what happens to the virgin islands in the winter.............


the bluebonnets are growing like CRAZY but so are the weeds!!!!

i had monday off so i put on my swimming suit & shorts  & spent the ENTIRE day pulling weeds.  my hands were so sore at the end of the day.  i can't work in gloves.  the tips of my fingers were almost raw.  reminded me of the movie "places in the heart" when sally field & the others are picking cotton day & night.  i'm glad i don't have to do this for a living!  my hands were so stained & dirty - they look like those of a diesel mechanic!!!!   i scrubbed them 3 times before i took a shower & scrubbed them & they still wouldn't come clean!  i couldn't even bring myself to take a picture of them to show you!!!

here's what i left for the garbage men......    i'm sure they LOVED me!!!!  15 bags of leaves & weeds!!

this is what the virgin islands looked like in the morning:

and this is what it looked like later in the evening:

those places that are left aren't places i missed - they're bluebonnets!!  it's going to be a BUMPER CROP this year!!!!!   if anyone wants to get your picture taken in the bluebonnets, come to my backyard instead of driving all the way out to brenham!!

look at all those plants!!!!  it amazes me how they LOVE to grow in the cracks of the patio & by the back door -- i'm not going to be able to open that door once they get bigger!!   the flower beds are FULL of them & i've got them growing where they've never grown before!!!   i can't wait til TEXAS EXPLODES in my backyard again this year!!!!

still got lots to pull -- but i'm blessed!!!  blessed to HAVE a home that has a yard even if it IS full of weeds. 

but the flowers will be beautiful this spring!!! 

and where else can you wear your swimming suit in the middle of january???!!!!


Sunday, January 15, 2012


my little bird is safe at home in her nest in dallas so this mamma can rest now & go to bed!

and that i will!!!   drove to nederland & back today for my niece's baby shower & then pulled 2 bags of weeds from grandma & papa's yard.   it's 8:38 now & i'm going to bed.

going to the virgin islands tomorrow - anyone want to come with me???!!!!!

be blessed!!!

Saturday, January 14, 2012

today's projects

we had almost 30 women at Bible study this morning!!!!   yay God!!!!   we're beginning a lengthy study on all the books of the Bible.  i pray that everyone sticks it out & we have a turnout like that every month!!!!  it's gonna take about 4+ years to do this study!!!!  wow!!!

one thing we did that was really neat was we went around the room & each lady told who her favorite Bible character was.  it was an interesting way to get to know people better.  the leaders are going to have a question like that each time - i think that's a great idea!!

after Bible study i met suzanne for lunch at jason's deli.  they've made my favorite sandwich a "seasonal sandwich" so it's not on the menu right now.  and no amount of coaxing would convince them to make one for me today!!!   well, we had a nice lunch anyways & then she took off for lumberton.  i'm heading there tomorrow with grandma for my niece's baby shower.  i made her gift, but i can't show it yet because i want it to be a surprise.   after the shower suzanne's heading back to dallas.  i wish we both could have had the whole month off together.  she worked at the movie theater so i didn't get to see her too much.   i miss her already!!

after lunch i worked in the front yard ALL. AFTER. NOON.  and i'm still not completely done with it but i ran out of daylight.  a couple months ago i put down winterizer fertilizer.  i think the only good it did was produce an abundance of weeds.  (makes for a pretty green winter lawn, but it's not what i want!!!!)  i raked & raked & raked & pulled weeds & ended up with this:

 i used to have such a THICK lawn, but last summer's drought really did a number on it.  i'm praying it comes back this spring.  i am going to have to buy some sod for quite a few places (like the whole front part between the sidewalk & the street).......!

meet "nellie":

she's my new lawn mower!!!!!!!!!     with the price of gas, it's hard enough to put all that $$ in my car let alone just burning it up in the lawn mower, so last fall when my mower died i got this "old fashioned" reel mower!!!!   IT. IS. SO. COOL!!!!!   it's really easy to push, cuts FANTASTICALLY & won't cost me a dime from here on out!!!!!  (except to get the blades sharpened every once in awhile)   i've already used it quite a few times & i love it!  it came with a little grass catcher, but i like letting the clippings fall back to fertilize the grass.  i want my thick lush grass back so i can mow it!!!!  

it's so much fun, i just might mow other people's grass too!!!

i wasn't a finalist in that "best project of 2011" contest, but that's ok - my projects were winners in my book!!!!

here's a sneak peek at my next project:

i think i'll have a little contest of my own!!!!   if you can guess what this project is, you'll win.......something!!!  (i'll come up with something!!!!!)   SUZANNE - YOU ARE DISQUALIFIED, SO DON'T EVEN BOTHER COMMENTING & GIVING IT AWAY!!!

leave a comment below - if you're one of the many who are having a problem leaving a comment with your url or name, do it anonymously, but write your name in the comment so i know who you are!!   sorry about that - i just can't figure it out & i can't leave comments on other people's blogs either, so i don't know what the problem is.  if you can't leave a comment below, leave one on my facebook page in the post about this post.

contest closes next friday night & i'll announce the winner saturday.  in case of a tie, i'll do a random drawing of the correct answers.

monday's a holiday so i'm going to the virgin islands.  not to play, but to work.  the weeds are WORSE there!

be blessed!!!!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

hope, trust & prayer - long & deep!!!

our church is looking for a new pastor & has called a candidate to come & spend the week here, preaching, teaching, getting to know us & us know him & his family through various activities.  tonight rather than just prayer meeting, he taught a lesson on prayer & then we had a time of corporate prayer.  lots of people came who don't normally come.  even though it was a good time of teaching, learning & prayer, & i was glad there were LOTS of people there, i couldn't help but think that i missed the intimate, deep prayer time that the FEW of us have on a typical wednesday!

WHY are we never satisfied?!

i was thinking to myself, "this is really good teaching, but we need to have the teaching on 1 night & the prayer time on it's own night.  BUT ALL the people need to come to both!!!!"

he said a couple things that i struggle with.  i wish i could have asked for clarification, but he went RIGHT into prayer time - no "do you have any questions?"  no comment time.  i wanted to ask a couple questions, but in the middle of prayer requests just didn't seem like the place to do it.

he said:

1.  God always answers our prayers.  i agree with that.  but he went on to say, "God always answers our prayers with 'Yes.'  it may be, 'yes, you can have what you have asked for' or 'yes, you can have even better than what you asked for.'"  he never said sometimes God says 'wait' or 'no.'   that's what i've always been taught.  i can accept the "wait" or "no" because i think sometimes God wants us to wait - He has something to teach us through the waiting or what we are asking for isn't in His will, so He says no.  i wanted to ask the pastor if he thought that way too & just didn't say it or if he truly thinks there are only 2 yes answers.

2.  he said God only speaks to us through scripture.  i have heard many pastors say that.  i have a real problem with it.  yes, i do believe God talks to us through His Word, the Bible.  but i also  believe He "talks" to us in other it the Holy Spirit, call it God talking to us, aren't They One & the Same?.......doesn't the Holy Spirit put thoughts in our minds & hearts - thoughts that are in alignment to what we have been praying - thoughts that "seem" like the answer?  - thoughts of scripture that address the issue?  ......what about when we read a devotional that just FITS what we have been praying about or struggling with?   there's scripture in that devotional.  this happens to me ALL the time.

tonight while driving home from work i was thinking about this very thing!  was that God or the Holy Spirit directing my thoughts, was God talking to me during that time?  i have quite a few issues that i'm struggling with right now.  i pray about them daily.  we've been praying about some of them at prayer meeting for a long time.  these prayers haven't yet been answered, or they've been answered with, "wait a little longer, I've got more to teach you."  i honestly don't think God has answered them with "no" & he hasn't answered them with "yes" yet either!   but i have to keep praying & keep hoping & keep trusting. and God promises to answer & He promises to give me the best that He has for me but my faith has to be strong.  satan is having a hay-day!  he knows where i'm weak & is attacking me.

a couple days ago my p31w devotional was about a hopeful future - the devotional went right along with my bedtime prayers the night before.

last night while praying i wrote in my prayer journal that i needed to TRUST God more. 

today's p31w devotional was about trusting God.

is God not talking to me, reassuring me through these devotionals, that He is in control, that He hears my prayers & that He & i just need to work on it all a little more?????  is He not giving me scripture verses that fit so perfectly that i say, "thank you God, that is exactly what i needed to hear."

and while i'm thinking about it, i struggle with the fact that some people's "prayers" seem to get answered right away - the same prayers i'm praying - but mine don't seem to be being answered at all.  do i give up?  nope!  i keep on praying.  but the timing just doesn't seem fair - i was telling this to God last night!  in today's devotional it talked about how mary & martha wanted Jesus to come when lazarus was sick & dying.  but He waited & didn't come until lazarus was already dead so that He could do a miracle & He would be glorified in the end.   just like my prayers - i have to hope & trust that God WILL answer someday & then He will be glorified!!!  but then i think, "yeah, but mary & martha only had to wait 2 days......"!!!!!!!     HOPE.   TRUST.       He's gonna do GREAT things!!  makes me think of what He says in habakkuk 1:5 "be astonished!  wonder!  because I am doing something in your days -- you would not believe if you were told."

is that not Him talking to me?????

people say God doesn't use "signs" anymore.  really?  but He's gonna at the end of the world, right?  doesn't it say in the gospels & in Revelation that the sun & moon will be a sign?  i think He uses them today still.    15 years ago this week i drove into the parking lot of a christian bookstore where there was a "now hiring" sign in the front window.  (that's NOT the kind of sign i'm talking about!!!!)   i went inside, went directly to the counter & asked about the job.  i was handed an application & told to hurry & fill it out.  when i pressed for more details, the man told me that the job had been advertised for about 2 weeks & no one had applied.  no one???  i asked if i could return the application later & went out to my van.  as i sat in the driver's seat & began to pray "God, what have i done?  i don't want a job.  i'm a mom with 2 little kids.  i HAVE a job!  my marriage is a mess right now.  i can't work.  what are You planning, God?"  just then something hit the van.  i thought it was another car, but it was a bird!  he was fluttering outside the driver's side window & i said outloud, "you stupid bird!"  just then he flew to the rider's side & sat on the mirror, looking at me through the window.  all of a sudden i began to cry & this thought came to me:  "I care for you & your kids more than I care for this little bird."  and i thought, "God's gonna take care of me & my kids, no matter what happens."  i filled out the application, signed my name at the bottom & then the little bird flew away.  2 days later i became the manager of 'more than just books' which later became 'mill's bible store'.   was that not a sign?  was that not God talking to me?  i believe it was.  but pastors say differently.  am i wrong?  are they right?  am i confused?  are they just taught that in seminary?  do i not have enough faith?  (the pastor used this example tonight----one woman prays & definitely gets her prayers answered via scripture.  God talks to her through the Bible & it's very clear that He's answering her prayers.  another lady sits quietly thinking, 'i've been praying forever for something, & reading my Bible but don't feel like God's talking to me or answering - does that mean i'm not spiritual enough, that i don't have enough faith..........??'    ----i honestly believe this is just satan putting doubts in our minds, trying to get us to not have faith.  trying to get us to not trust God.)

during the 10 years that followed, God took care of me--through marital problems, kid problems, my husband's brain cancer, and eventually through a divorce - & the almost 6 years since, He's been right there, taking care of me, providing for me, teaching me, growing me.  at that job i learned so much about God, so much about myself.  i learned to be confident again - something that a lifetime of abuse had taken away.  i went through a battle with cancer with the store owner to learn how to manage through a battle of cancer with my husband.  i learned how to handle the death of a friend, the deaths of my parents & the death of a marriage.  and through it all God took care of me & provided..........was that little bird not a sign?????   didn't God use that little bird to remind me that He says in matthew 10:31 "do not fear, you are more valuable than many sparrows."  wasn't God talking to me that day, telling me He'd protect me?

i think God uses the little birds, the p31w devotionals & many other things to lead us back to scripture, back to His Word where He does talk to us.   and like one wise woman said at church tonight, "the Holy Spirit wouldn't 'bring it to mind' if it hadn't already been read in the first place."    so that all ties back to YOU'VE GOTTA READ THE WORD TO HEAR GOD SPEAK TO YOU!!

aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!   i get it!!!      God's mind is so much bigger than mine!!!!  i'm glad He understands it all, because i sure don't!!!!!!

but all i can do is TRUST in Him.

i am so blessed!!!!  and God & i talk to each other!!!!!!    i'm so glad He loves me enough!