Thursday, June 7, 2012

i need accountability

bible study & prayer meeting were FANTASTIC tonight!!!!!! it's neat how no matter how many times you've studied the bible, God always has a message in there for you if you're willing to listen! i've been in a funky mood lately & haven't prayed much or even WANTED to pray -- even told God last night that i didn't want to pray, well, i wanted to talk to Him, but it was more like, "You talk to me, but i don't want to talk to YOU because i'm mad at You & even more mad at myself" & i felt God wasn't working in my life.....well, the proverbs31woman devotional this morning said "He's working in your life even when you can't see Him working" & our pastor said something that really hit me between the eyes & straight to my heart: "don't forget to pray" - no matter what! there were times when Abraham didn't pray, but God was still working out His plan. And when Abraham remembered to pray, God blessed him. i've seen that so many times in my life. i just need to remember to pray & remember that even when it doesn't seem like God's doing anything, He is. He's got it all planned out & i just need to be patient & wait for His timing. it doesn't mean He's answering with a "NO". i need to wait & accept the fact that I'M NOT GOD & i'm not the one with the plan. i need to continue to pray & let God know my desires (even though He already knows them) & let God know that i love Him & am thankful for all He does for me - it's the 2-way conversation He's looking for, He wants me to actively be a part of His plan, not just sit back & pout because i'm not getting my way. He doesn't want me to give up or pull away, He wants me to draw closer to Him. so tonight at prayer meeting i asked for prayer for my prayer life & attitude - & people prayed. AND i prayed!!! lots! as in many times. our pastor ends the prayer time by being the last one to pray. he usually waits some time after the last person has prayed to see if anyone else is going to pray. after a "lengthy" silence, he prays. well, tonight he jumped right in & closed!!! i think he did it so i wouldn't rattle on some more!!!!! not really, but it made me giggle!!! i'm sure God was smiling too!! (even at night these blackeyed susans look happy!!!) so, friends.....i need accountability! hold me accountable to praying. ask me periodically if i've done it. & if i say i haven't, kick me in the butt pray with me right then!!!! starting this friday night, at MY HOUSE, at 7pm dan's leading a 6 week bible study on the book of colossians! everyone's welcome!!!!! even if you're not a member of CBC......if you're my friend, you can come. if you're not my friend, you can come. if you want to be my friend, you can come. if you don't want to be my friend, what the heck's the matter with you?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!


Anonymous said...

You know, there is something i really really like about our church family. We are real people. We mess up. We need help. We are vulnerable. And we say so. I love the transparancy of having REAL people to learn and walk with as i travel this path. luv ya!!
Phil 1:
9 And this I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and [in] all judgment; 10 That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere and without offence till the day of Christ; 11 Being filled with the fruits of righteousness, which are by Jesus Christ, unto the glory and praise of God.

Laurie said...

Thanks for sharing this Dorothy! SO glad you're my friend and can share these things. You dont' know how much what you share, helps me.
ANd you always make me laugh too... "if you don't want to be my friend, what the heck's the matter with you?... LOL, you tell 'em!"